the girl who loves to invade your dreams....

The stress of a primary 6 kid

2011-12-09T23:20:00.002+08:00

Ok I met for tutee today, going to give him primary 6 maths tuition. First impression of him is that he is quite a smart and motivated boy but just feel that he could have acquired better examination skills to score better for his exams. He looked pretty stressed up and honestly I feel more worried about his confidence level and mental elasticity to face such a tremendous amount of stress at a tender age of 11 years old. I think it's too much for him to handle.

Finally finished mst!!! Seriously lethargic after 5 days of exams and going to meet the tutee after that and learn that I have to catch up so much on the primary six syllabus is crazy. The worst is tml I still have to wake at at 5.45am to prepare to go Polyclinic to work. Not forgetting that final part of Fyp report is kicking in soon with poster preparation for exhibiton. And this sunday I am going to imh to help out with their Christmas celebration as well. I need to stay strong and be more efficient to cope with such schedules.

Last mst

2011-12-07T22:07:00.002+08:00

Having my last mst in poly now. Suprising enough I get to sleep like 10 hours everyday although mid sem tests are going on when ironically people are losing sleep over preparation for the tests. I seriously get more sleep than I do on any other days when I had to work and study. I wasn't exactly that stressed compared to the past mst. Is it a sign of complacency or overexhaustion?

Quite amazed by myself still being able to clear up the laundry and dishes just before leaving home for the paper. Even my sister was shocked when she saw me in a futile bid to try to clear the choked sink in the kitchen just 2 hours before my paper. Ok I really fail at clearing the sink man guess it's just too choked.

Going to meet my soon to be tutee on Friday. Can't wait for Friday to come then can at least take a break:)

Great confident boost

2011-11-21T17:43:00.005+08:00

After talking to Miss Joanne, I had a great confident boost about what I want to apply for university. =) I am so going to apply with total confidence for it now. I have sort of decided about my first and second option. But still I want to learn more about those courses to avoid disappointment of any sort. It's really like a big decision man!

Regarding PSC scholarship I thought it could be a solution to my sch fees but the idea of serving a six years bond in the government sector doing policy making just totally turns me off. Haha!

I really wish I can get into the course I want so badly. I don't wanna have limitations. I swear I will be more motivated than ever if I can enter this dream course of mine:)

Uni application!

2011-11-17T23:25:00.003+08:00

OMG! How fast time flies! Almost half of the last semester in poly is gone. It is almost time to make a bigger decision in life- the uni to go and the course to take. Glad that I have something in my mind by now but just worried that I can't get into my ideal course. I have thought of going overseas initially but as much as I want to go explore overseas I think I will miss everything here at home my family, my boyfriend and friends =(. Additionally, going overseas will incur extra living allowance that I can't afford. So my decision is to stay local and still get stuck in the singapore education system. NO choice =/.

I have kind of set my eyes on NUS. Recently, I have been browsing through the courses to learn more as well as get more info from lecturers who have gone through the same thing. Now its time for me to seriously consider the 5 options to put even before the application opens.

I don't understand why my friend say I look like those very relaxed aka non-gan giong person. Really meh???? LOL! It never occur to me that way at all.

Look forward to going Singapore flyer with the IMH patient on sunday! Meaningful excuse to escape from school work!!! Hehe. But still stress because there is test on monday!Nevermind chiong last minute! HEHE!

Last semester of poly!

2011-10-17T09:16:00.001+08:00

As I step out of my house to school to attend the last semester of my poly, I promise myself to make it a good run for this last lap and savor every moment of poly life. As much as I can't wait to wear the graduation robe, I would really miss my poly
Life too. :)

Looking back at the holiday that had just left yesterday, I feel satisfied about being able to fully utilize it. Waking up everyday except on sunday at 6am was no joke. Each morning I had to push myself out of my bed and prepare to go work.

At work, its just like a Dracula factory. Patient come, suck their blood and say good bye. After a good bye, the whole cycle repeats for about 30 times the entire morning. At times when I woke up from the wrong side of my bed, my day at work will be full of apologies as I lost my ability to judge the location of the vein. It sucks.

When work ends, I went to school every afternoon to do my final year project. It feels lonely somehow when doing Fyp because Gayathree takes the morning shift and I take the afternoon shift so we basically have noone to talk to except to rd cells and ev71, I would usually plug in my iPhone and blast dj kzee. It's quite cool to listen to dj kzee while doing experiment, you could just feel the blast of energy. Hehe.

Fortunately, school lab closes at 5.30pm so I have an official excuse to declare the end of my day. Usually after that I would just go do some writing or reading when I have the mood but usually no mood to do so. I will just go for a good dinner usually Tom yum then go home and help out with housework.

The stress to maintain a work-life balance is always there.

Still thinking..

2011-08-20T08:16:00.003+08:00

I am still thinking of him everyday no matter how hard I try to forget.

So much to study for exams! Two textbooks for just one semester. Information overload!!!

Making new friends and getting to know more people can be fun as well=)

I still miss you...

2011-08-19T01:20:00.000+08:00

I am trying to stop myself from contacting him so that he can think carefully whether we should be together again or not and not act like a pestering crazy woman. "You can’t make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth."

Meanwhile I shall focus on my exams!!! =) Must do well. I must not screw up my last lap. Just one more semester and I will be graduating.=)

Thank god for letting me meet friends like Pearlyn. She is such a supportive friend. There are so much that we have in common like we are able to study together effectively, put make up together and cam-whore together like one hour in the toilet.I am really glad she's here when I am facing such a difficult period in my life.

Crashing

2011-08-15T21:28:00.004+08:00

I am glad I breezed through today with Clinical and Molecular diagnostics and Histology papers as well as Biostaticss presentation.

I have reached the one of the lowest point of my life this year. Problems. Relationship problems, exams, submission, dateline, cells dying. Everything just seems to be crashing onto me all at once. I have to be strong. Crying over the phone cos of bf yet still have to study for exams. Sometimes when I reach home I am already so tired yet greeted with a pile of dirty dishes and 1.5m pile of laundry to do.

Somehow glad that I still have my dearest friends around me supporting me. Pearlyn and Gayathree have been my main source of consolation when my heart is at trouble=) when I am so stressed up with work, Winston even offered to help me out with my essay on Singapore Education System so that I can concentrate on my exams. <3 my friends:)

He is the one =)

2011-08-11T21:20:00.003+08:00

Must be thinking I am nuts or what to be posting photos of my ex-bf. Haha. Just miss being together with him a lot. So much drama happened during such a short period of time. Seen and experienced so much in such a short time. Now that I am no longer together with him, I begin to cherish him more than ever. This guy who have been together with me almost 3 years, someone I thought I could easily find someone to replace has already stayed a special place in my heart that I don't even know until now.

During those times when we separated, I foolishly thought that I could easily move on with my personal goal in life, with friends around me and perhaps with someone else. Until I tried, I didn't know it was so tough to forget him. My friend was right that I was a spoiled girl. Spoiled by my boyfriend. He always does whatever I expect and even went beyond that to give me surprises. I could totally be myself and he never criticize to for any flaws that I have. I can never ask for more. It does not matter at all if he can provide bread for me in future. This is no longer important. No matter rich or poor, at least I know I have happiness that money can never buy.

I only wish we can be together again. I will be a good girl and stop doing things that he don't like =)

Personaility Test.

2011-08-05T01:31:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

You value your friendships: 75%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Your sweetheart is like a big brother to you. He is kind and always takes good care of you. He is a dream boyfriend; gentle and compassionate, he is completely and utterly dedicated to the girl he loves. It's easy to please him because he appreciates everything you do for him. There's no need to worry about changing yourself in any way because he accepts you the way you are. When this type of man fall in love it's going to be deep and quite probably forever.

Hoping that she is the one...

2011-08-05T00:02:00.002+08:00

I have finally found her =) Someone I can rely on emotionally and someone I can really trust, more appreciative of me and can really understand and talk to me. She is really a perfect friend in my eyes =) first time so much in love with a friend.. HAHA=D

Hi=)

2011-05-24T00:48:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated for you. Although I doubt that you will be reading my blog anymore.:X

Saw your pictures on facebook and saw that you are doing well. I am really glad for you=) We don't talk anymore but sometimes I will still think of you and those days we had together. It was one of those most happy times I had in my life, remembering how you taught me to pray when I was feeling down and how caring you were. Although, it was all short-lived... Leaving you was a painful decision and hurting a person like you made me more remorseful than ever.

I regretted ruining the friendship between us =( but I guess God just has better plans for you because someone so kind like you is someone I should never deserve. You deserve a lot better...

wtf

2011-03-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

you talk damn big.. but didnt help at all... u ask me if i need computer or anyth and u can buy for me.. i said dont need because i dont wanna burden u...

now i ask u to buy printer for mei mei cos she really need it for her art work... u fking tell me wait just because u wanna buy a stupid bag that u wont really use..

i said that the printer is more impt should buy first! y u just don uds!?!?!

FML!

forget it i will earn the money myself.. this is shit.. keep taking my money...

Financial burden

2011-01-31T16:52:00.002+08:00

Life is predestined.

No matter how hard I work I will still be poor.

I never even ask for a single cent from you since 2 years ago and now you keep asking me for money.

All my hard earned money gone again.

I think I really don't have to go uni anymore.

Can you stop gambling? Can you stop spending money like water? Can you give me a break?

MONEY MONEY MONEY

2011-01-11T22:59:00.002+08:00

I am glad that I am now able to work twice a week because I got no more lesson on wed morning and this will allow me to generate quite a bit more of income. At least, I can now provide for myself and give a bit to my sisters so that they can have a more comfortable life and my dad will have less burden.

Now my next goal is to get a new computer and printer for my sisters cos my house is currently left with this laptop that I am using.

But, on the other hand, I think I am losing focus in my studies. Studying and learning was no longer as pleasurable as how I find last time. Lessons are attended for the sake of attending. I am just so tired and always sleepy when in school. I don't really feel like going to school actually.

2010-12-11T23:57:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I just feel like killing myself.

Shit always happens at home.

I think I am losing interest in everything now.

2 more papers T.T

2010-12-09T09:21:00.002+08:00

Two more papers to go T.T =.= Pathology paper later and molecular bio tomorrow. Good that exams are ending but anxiety starts building up looking at the tons of work to do during the 3 weeks break. 1 ITP report(which I really have no idea how to start), 3 reports for school, 1 essay, 1 resume and 1 presentation to prepare for. Still have work and I don't even know if I have time to care about SC stuffs.

So far I am very happy with my work a NHGD. However, always stressed about clearing the morning crowd at the polyclinic. I always go the ECG as fast as I could like a mad woman but sometimes the machine will jam up and it makes me go haywire too!!!!!!!!!

LongChamp Le Pliage

2010-12-06T16:19:00.003+08:00

LongChamp Le Pliage. I don know why I am so in love with this bag. Stylish, can use for school and dont look too expensive(doesnt suit me). Got to get one fake one soon. Saw a fake version at NEX at only $15. Wanted to buy but bf bought from ebay. zzzz.. and now got to wait...

2010-11-17T12:55:00.001+08:00

I need to stop thinking about falling back on him when things happens.
Now that I am alone. I guess my mind is clearer to think about what I want in life.

2010-11-16T18:10:00.002+08:00

Seriously... damn stress. Not done with ITP report. Never ending work and housework and unexplainable tension headaches.. Should I start working once I graduate from Sp?

Too much

2010-11-15T07:43:00.002+08:00

Too much things coming at me...I think I am going to suffocate.
Work, household chores and studies.
My heart has been very heavy these days. Very moody.
I want to get a guitar but I doubt I have the time to learn.

2010-10-25T17:17:00.002+08:00

There are so many things bothering me now.

Where shall I start?

Money.
I am running out of money to support myself soon because my attachment place owed me my pay and SP owed me the reimbursement for my sch fees. And my parents asked if they can use my money. And now, I have to work so hard on weekends whenever I can just to earn more to feed myself.

I really feel like graduating asap so that I cn go out and work asap to earn money. Sigh...

Meanwhile hoping that those money will return to me soon n my pay cheque will come in soon.

2010-10-24T09:39:00.001+08:00

Ok I am insane.

Going to work later until late at night.

I hate lesson. I am so tired I can't concentrate.

2010-08-29T12:09:00.001+08:00

Life is so boring and tiring. I didn't know eating can be such a guilty thing to do.

Haix

2010-08-26T22:14:00.002+08:00

I suck. Whatever I do is just not right though I have already put my whole heart into it. My dad is right I am really stupid.

Disappointed

2010-08-21T09:08:00.002+08:00

I have a fucked up family. Sometimes it seems fine when it is quiet but it is not most of the time. He is just the ah beng who swears at me and people on the road and spend 1000 dollars on 4D every month. She wants her LV bag so much and she blames him for not being able to afford one. So she went to work to get her LV bag. He beat us up including her when he is angry. I always ask myself to forget about it since he grew up in a violent family. N she grew up in a broken family. That means I have to grow up in this violent family n my children will have to suffer the same fate as me. Freaking 1000 dollars which can be spent on my education or become my allowance instead. I thought my family is so so poor that he could no longer support me. I have to work part time as a promoter or waitress on weekend just to earn allowance to feed myself. I used to starve myself or eat bread to save up on lunch money. But I m not going to do it anymore. He said he is using that thousand dollar to buy hope but I said he is throwing hope away. He would beat me up because he did it before in the past. Home is not where I find comfort it is just where i go cos in got nowhere else to head to. I always stay out late because I feel happier to do so.

Weird incident

2010-08-10T23:57:00.002+08:00

What should I do? I really don't know. :( Everything could be back to normal actually. I can. I think you are the one holding back.

I am starting to hate somebody. That stupid, irritating somebody. Now that I see his true colours. I know ugly is bone deep. I feel cheated. I will not trust people so easily anymore.

My heart is tired after that turbulent period of time. I would like to take a break now.

Officially 18!

2010-08-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

OFFICIALLY 18!

Thanks for the sunflower and the watch :)

Lab Lunch at Meritus Mandarin

2010-08-05T16:28:00.003+08:00

Lab Lunch @ Meritus Mandarin Triple Three...
Lab people at my internship place...

God has better plans.

2010-07-27T22:47:00.002+08:00

I was once disappointed and upset.I used to lose all hopes thinking that thats all I got in exchange for the hardwork I have put in. Little did I expect, god has better plans for me. And, God really did have better plans for me.I got a good exposure and more financial security instead of almost spending my entire fortune away.I am getting paid as a temp research assistant for ITP. All thanks to my benefactor.:D

Someone said I have too much stressful events to face. I am not enjoying life.My dad says that I am biting more than I can chew. I am trying to sort out. But it seems that I am quite stuck in this vicious cycle.

Life is a bed of thornful roses~

2010-07-10T00:40:00.002+08:00

Life is tough. Now, I start to realize that the monthly allowance from the scholarship is insufficient for me anymore especially when I am working at Novena now. The daily expenses is really high as each meal at Novena cost about $5. To think back, it is really a blessing in disguise for not going OITP. If not, money would cause a major stress for me. In addition, I am really enjoying NNI now working with things I am really passionate about.

I love research work alot!

Today, I witnessed a gruesome bereavement of a lab rat's head by a gruesome murderer. Amazed by his swift and skilled killing.

After work in lab, I rushed to Swenses to work as a waitress. It was really tiring and painful with the heavy ceramics plates and tall glasses. I did not have time to eat dinner and was shuddering as I worked, bearing with the hunger.

Now, Mummy is working and the housework on me is piling up.

无论有多辛苦，我还是要努力地过生活! 因为吃得苦衷苦，方为人上人。

Ok. Calvin's word keep ringing in my head and it did helped me.

SP Scholarship Ceremony

2010-07-07T22:34:00.005+08:00

SP Scholarship cum SP Engineering Scholarship Award Ceremony

Tian Tian and I ... another scholar from Team Rocket. Woohoo!

2010-07-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

At least a feel a little more accomplished today finishing my treatment of glial cells for kill curve, transfection, PCR, secondary antibody incubation and mounting of slides before lunch. I feel great though my stomach was growling away when I was doing it.

After lunch, I went back to SP for Scholarship ceremony rehearsal. So it was quite surprising to realize that 4/10 of us are from DPA, 3/10 of us went for Vietnam OCIP together and 4/10 of us are from Team Rocket!

I went back to the lab at 6pm just in time to run gel. So I stayed in the lab with Grace until 8.30pm and I got scolded by my dad for staying in the lab until so late. Luckily, I finally got the PCR products that I want after a few futile attempts if not I would have got scolded in vain.

I am glad I am getting the hang of things so I can be independent asap. But from what I observe I think my aseptic techniques for tissue culture is still dubious. :O

Fulfilling Sunday

2010-07-04T23:28:00.003+08:00

Woke up early in the morning to clear all the laundry work and went on to cook our very own Penne Fusilli Pork Bolognaise with Prawns with Mei Mei. The pasta did not look comparable to pastamania but it was delicious.

After eating was 2 hours of ironing of the stack of clothes and finally I went on a bleach spree in the toilet. I love bleach!

In the evening, I went to hougang mall to collect my white blouse and chill with Jun.

When I reached home feeling glad that I have done a lot of things, I realized in dismal that I have yet done my tutorial. Argh.

MY CELLS!

2010-07-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

I went back to the lab to passage my cells which I have left forgotten on Friday. I was so worried that my cells will not survive that I dreamt of myself returning to the lab and got the cells passaged on Friday night. When can't I be a little more calm and so hysterical.:(

Boss Birthday

2010-07-02T23:42:00.003+08:00

It was boss's birthday celebration at Rice Table yesterday! Palatable food! The most playful part was still to get boss out of his chair so as to put the present in and even got cleaning auntie to be the spy. I thought it was rather thrilling for us.

It was really enjoyable for me so far. I like my side with the four girls, always filled with mirth. It is so much better than going to school. School is so dead and stressful.

Still no bands for PCR after 3 tries. I want results! I am always a little gan jiong, afraid that besides not being able to help, I am also imposing on them. My dad asked me not to be so gan jiong and hardworking if not people will hate me. hmmm?

Industrial Attachment!

2010-06-29T22:35:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the first day at attachment. When I set foot into the lab and saw the amicable and familiar faces, I finally heaved a sigh of relief. But, immediately the next thing I feel perturbed about is whether I can correlate and harmonize with the people there well since I have always been introverted. Not that it is what I want but it is just me. I have made much painstaking effort to change the fact that I am an introvert. I am gradually changing and I can really say I am much different from how I was when I was young. Pretty autistic you may call.

Oh dear~ How am I going to turn more extroverted. I need more courage.

Alright this is my working desk where the novel discoveries will be made. HAhaHa after I know how to take good care of the cells.

Note: Knowing how to pull strings in life is important. Knowing how to manipulate interpersonal relationships is a prerequisite to doing well in life. Scoring As are important to do well is a shitload of crap. ok maybe both are important but the former is the crucial one.

Life's Great

2010-06-21T18:16:00.004+08:00

Went down to Suntec to watch Robocup yesterday and surprisingly found my juniors practicing for the dance category.

I was only helping my junior to convert a video file format on her laptop when a woman came towards me and said that I could not stay in the competition ground. I wanted to leave but I did not dare to leave the laptop on the table and just go off like that.

So I asked the woman to allow me to pass it to my juniors who have gone for an interview for the competition. She disagreed and instead kindly offered to help me pass the laptop to my junior.

Never did I think that the woman actually took the laptop and reported that I helped my juniors and cheated the competition. My juniors elucidated to the Robocup crews and they pushed all the blame on me by saying "I am not saying that it is you fault, I am saying that it is your senior's fault. She should know what is right and what is wrong''.

I feel so accused. Freaking brainless bunch of people. What's more is I don't even have a freaking idea on how to program the vex robots. Brainless!

Today, I went down again to watch my juniors compete. Saw many SP friends like Prem, Ridz, Jonathan and Jack. Also met up with Desmond Khoo, Kelvin and Jiaming.

When it was almost time for my junior's competition, I helped to put on make up for them. It was my first time putting make up on people's face. Glued their fake eyelashes and applied eyeliner, blusher and lip gloss from them. :) It was not that bad. Hehe.

Someone's words pricked me and my mood was destroyed for the rest of the day. Best friend~ haix~ I sincerely do not want it to turn out this way.

DNA GOlab Workshop Completed!

2010-06-18T23:48:00.003+08:00

After 4 days of preparation. DNA GO lab workshop at Pioneer Sec ended successfully! Whee! Good job Joey, Arilyn, Jhee Hong and Rabia. You peeps just rock!

DNA Mobile Lab Preparation Day One

2010-06-14T21:48:00.003+08:00

Went for 2 hours of leadership training at 9am and chiong off to the laboratory to prepare for the DNA Forensics GO lab workshop until 5pm plus . Freaking busy and lethargic. Reach home still got to read up on some stuff to prepare myself. No mood. I am burning out... ...

FINALLY the end of PC Show 2010

2010-06-14T01:03:00.003+08:00

PHEW! The end of the 5th IT Show I have worked in my life. Sales was 16 for four days. CHUI! As usual, my legs are aching like mad now. I am tired. Going to zz after I read some emails. Waking up at 6am later. Got leadership training from 9 to 6 tml and the day after tml and DNA mobile lab workshop preparation. Lets see how I will drown in it.

FREAKING... no time

2010-06-12T01:25:00.002+08:00

Freaking no time nowadays.. just ended exam.. now working 12 hours a day a PC show..
came back.. do housework... read and reply emails.. vent out my feelings here.. should sleep soon.. sayonara...

PC show was bad experience. Low sales... mild headache and diarrhea... must be some bacteria or baterial toxins attacking my poor immune system... freaking tired...

BUSY

2010-06-05T00:05:00.002+08:00

Embracing myself for the busy weeks ahead! MST, PC SHOW, DNA Mobile Lab, DBSSC, Self improvement courses and books!

YAY! Sourced my own ITP. I am going to National Neuroscience Institute, Neurodegenaration Lab instead of Tan Tock Seng Hospital. I am of course thrilled by the prospect of this ITP because it is research based. I think it is on genetics? Something which I would love to challenge instead of just routine clinical lab work. -_-

Secondly, NNI is just next to TTSH. So hopefully, I still can beep my friends at TTSH to go for lunch together during ITP. At least, I would not feel so lonely then. Ha-ha.

Skipped my diploma plus class at night to go to Jun's friend's house to bbq.I really don't like to see him disappointed.

BREATHLESS

2010-06-03T01:10:00.002+08:00

I am in need of IPHONE!!! With almost 40 incoming messages everyday, I am really seeing the need for a phone that can better sort out the messages for more efficiency. It is so so inconvenient to scroll down to find one pathetic message.In addition, I need a more versatile phone so that I can key in all my schedules and to-do-list easily in the phone.

I called up Dr Lim from National Neuroscience Institute for ITP today. Waiting for news...

I do not really like some lecturers who shows favoritism.

Finally! I understood my decision to choose him and not him. Reason was simple, the one I chose was able to give me better emotional support. I love him alot!

GOOD NEWS

2010-05-31T23:57:00.003+08:00

I am glad things took a turn and are changing for me now. I was previously caught up in relationship problems for about a month struggling on a day by day basis. I was so lethargic. I lost the drive to study and I lost focus too. I couldnt pay attention in class and I failed whatever I tried.

Fortunately, things are changing. There are a few things worth celebrating.
First, I am going to Tan Tock Seng Hospital Dept of Laboratory Medicine for my industrial attachment. It is convenient so I really like it.
Secondly, I got attached to Hougang Polyclinic for my Diploma Plus attachment. Yeah. Again, its very convenient. Hehe.
Thirdly, I am offered SP scholarship! But, I still have to check with my ext scholarship for permission to accept the scholarship without any monetary benefits.
Lastly, my life seems to be getting back on track now. I can concentrate on my studies better now!

In love with Lady Gaga

2010-05-31T00:34:00.004+08:00

I am so in love with Lady Gaga. Always steeped in eccentricity and shock value. Was watching this video to learn how to dance her songs. Its a really good video. Bravo!

Telephone is actually the continuation of Paparrazi. In Paparazzi, Lady Gaga poisoned his boyfriend and Telephone was about her jailed for her crime. Both songs have actually hidden meaning on Monarch programming. Its interesting!

Specialist Graduation Parade

2010-05-30T11:05:00.002+08:00

Went to Jun's Specialist Graduation Parade last thursday and wore his chevron for him. I was fortunate enough to find my own way to Pasir Laba Camp with some random SP guy who was also heading there for his friend's graduation. 3rd SGT :)
VANITY~ this is my proud collection of nail polish... I applied pink and green on each of Jun's toes and the shoe shop assistant kept staring at his toe nails while he tried the shoes.

HME Operation 2010

2010-05-15T23:47:00.002+08:00

HME Operation for DBS Year One Stage A was successfully completed!!! YEAH!

I know some people are unhappy with my performance but I promise I will try harder.Somehow I do feel that I am not up to it, I am struggling to become better. :)

OKAES!! NEXT UP!!! DBS Night Cycling on 22nd May!

After HME, I went down to SLS to collect my pay cheque from ACER show. It was $180 for 2 days!!! It was more than what I expected.So happy. More money=more clothes.

I headed straight to Bugis Street to shop and the intended purpose was to buy a pair of heels and a piece of clothing. But, I cant seems to find anything that catches my eye. Awww...

Caught in the middle.

2010-05-15T03:43:00.003+08:00

It seems to be more vivid to me now, who dominates. Although, I cannot be 100% sure what will happen in the future, I know where my heart follows.

I was really exhausted that I could not balance properly when I was standing in the train back to sengkang.It was 11pm.

Back home, I lied down on the sofa and talked over the phone. I was struggling to engage in that conversation. Finally, I could no longer stand it anymore. I hung up on the call and slept on the sofa until 2 plus am.

I woke up to shower at 3am. Feeling troubled.

After that, I dialed again. Twice. To check who was really waiting for my call. It was stupid of me. Apparently, no one cared.

I just want to let you know that actions speaks louder than words and all those sweet nothings eventually amounts to nothing.Sigh.

IBN Interview

2010-05-13T18:21:00.003+08:00

Yesterday,DBSSC (Dip Biomedical Science Student Council)did the very first HME training for the year ones. It was rather impressive because of the great council members! But, for me, I was disappointed with myself.I think I still have to practise more presentation.

Just went for ASTAR IBN interview just now. Again, I feel upset after the interview. Awww...

Being an introvert is not good...

I love you...

Phlebotomy

2010-05-10T23:38:00.001+08:00

I did venipuntcure today! My virgin time. It was successful. One shot one kill. Proud of myself. *Grins* It was so funny when I actually felt nervous throughout the haematology class, thinking that I may not survive phlebotomy.

Went for balloting for my diploma plus attachment and I am going for it this october at hougang polyclinic. 100 venipuntures plus 20 skin pricks. HeHe!

I am tired and struggling.

I am glad you have always been there for me

Back up plan

2010-05-09T05:48:00.002+08:00

Back Up plan with Wayne... turned out to be much better than the review...

under the stars and over my heart...

Awww

2010-05-04T01:18:00.002+08:00

I am really really tired...

Looking at how successful people are always makes me feel inferior and insufficient...

Great Day!

2010-05-01T23:34:00.001+08:00

I had a great day today.

I studied in school with today.

Saw Jaslyn, Daniel and Xin Mao in school today.

Went to JP with Wayne's church friends to chill today.

I felt so loved today.

Just ordered a yellow and lime green nail polish from Sheryl today.

Could not ask for anything more today

Today was perfect!

It's all too late.

2010-05-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

When you finally realized it, it's all too late. I can't bring myself to trust you so easily again because if you realize, it is not the third time anymore... not the fourth either... I lost count of it...

CRAZY MAD DAYS

2010-04-26T23:16:00.001+08:00

I am having more frequent anxiety attacks nowadays. Too many things are going on in my life now, happy and sad. I was working at Funan for Acer Show for the past two days, 10.30am till 8.30pm. By the time I reached home, it was already like 10.30pm and I was totally drained out to do anything much. The stress from the lack of sleep is slowly building up in me.

I didnt have enough time to finish up my work due today. I did my work till 2am yesterday and woke up at 6am again to do my work. I knew I would not be able to survive today with 3 hours of practical and 7 hours of lecture, so I bought coffee to perk myself. It worked pretty well! All a need is half a cup to make me feel high the whole day.

I guess today is the day I officially break up with Jun. Sigh... I missed those happy days we had but learning to let go of each other is perhaps better for the both of us. I will miss him and I will be his friend. I shall wish him all the best. All the best Sergeant!

After Project Hy Vong, I have much thoughts and feelings. I want to make a change and see a change in myself. I want to improve, lead and communicate better. :) I MUST work on it now, regardless how tiring it gets. :) I may not be good enough but please give a chance.:)

Japanese Visit to the Med Tech Lab :)

2010-03-18T23:42:00.002+08:00

Japanese Visit to the Med Tech Lab :)

Went back to SP to help out cos a group of Japanese Students came for an exchange programme. My job is simply to show them the Human Anatomy Model in the lab. Ha-ha. Used a bit of Japanese (at least what I learnt for the last semester has came in handy).
The Japs are really polite and nice people. Picked up the names of the some organs in Japanese from them. :)

First time drawing blood from the dummy arm today. So excited when the blood came squirting into the vacutainer because it means it was successful.

Project Hy Vong First Meeting

2010-03-16T22:15:00.003+08:00

Project Hy Vong First Meeting

Went back to SP for the first Project Hy Vong (Hope in Vietnamese language)meeting. Flying off to Vietnam from 4 April to 17 April to teach the younger children there. Whees!!! My personal goal as well as NYAA Gold Residential project shall be fulfilled soon. Gonna miss euu lots

Amanda's 18th Bdae!

2010-03-15T12:55:00.000+08:00

Happy Bdae Amanda!

Celebrated belated bdae for amanda. Met up with Vivian and Gena and went around shopping for her pressie.

Meet manda up and went Kbox and then neoprints session then finally dined in at Aston. :)

It was a great day. 3 birthdays down. Next will be mine then off to try out clubbing. Really hope we get to go club together.

IT SHOW

2010-03-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

IT SHOW 2010

11 March - 14 March 2010

Just back from camp and the next day went to chiong IT Show for the next four days. Money flew all over the place and some into my pocket. :)

Sold Acer Laptops. 12 hours of work a day. 2 hours of transport back and froth to Suntec. It was insane. My body felt the impact on the third day and on the fourth day my voice was hoarse. After work on the fourth day, I fell sick, giddy and nauseous. The crowd and noise there is just so suffocating.

Miss work somehow because when there is money there is happiness in me. LoL. Can't wait to get the pay. So many things I want to do with the money. :)

SPOT LTC

2010-03-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

SPOT Leaders Of Tomorrow Camp @ Telunas Resort, Batam

7 March - 10 March 2010

TEAM ROCKET! BLAST OFF!!!

DAY ONE: Jungle trekking & Overnight

On the boat which ferry us to the jungle and back to the resort.

Trekking through the forest to the camp site with heavy haversack was even more of an uphill task with the terrain that we city bumpkins are unfamiliar with. That night, we ate rice cooked in a pot with yellowish stream water and a gooey mixture of markerel, corn and button mushrooms. It was quite delicious(luckily it was dark and we could not really see what we were eating). :)

Retiring for the night in our own cosy hammock for the first time in my life. It was humid and I could not sleep so I chatted with Tian Tian for about an hour. It was a :) conversation. Heard strange noises at night and did not dare to peek outside the hammock, let alone getting out of it.

Brushing teeth in the jungle and preparing to go for breakfast. Tasted jungle milo made out of stream water for the first time. Did not taste that bad but my cup of milo always had strange things with wings floating it. :)

Only peed one time for almost 24 hours.

DAY TWO:Raft Building and Kayaking

DAY THREE: Telunas Olympics aka Amazing Race

Did jumping jacks which we did not have to do. Long Story !@#$% Tio owned!
Swimming in the sea to push the kayak to the destination to complete one station. Tasted sea water.

DAY FOUR: End of Camp

Receiving the certificate from Director of DSD upon completion of the camp. That means I have just completed NYAA Gold Adventure section. Yippee...
Miss the friends, team rocket, the food, the sea, the sand, the fun... never had such a fun camp for a long time :)

Third Day of Holiday

2010-03-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

Made Chawanmushi for my sisters this morning and then gone out with Jun to Teo Heng KTV to sing K. Love to sing Duet Liang Shan Bo Yu Zhu Li Ye with Dear. Haha.

After that, we went home and played Sims 3. :)

I am leaving for camp tomorrow from 7-10 March. Will be away in Batam. Wish me luck man. I will be in the jungle at this hour 24 hours from now. SOBS.

Second day of Holiday

2010-03-05T22:11:00.001+08:00

Continued cross stitching today and got the face done :) Alot more to go!!! I shall persist on to make this for my beloved
Made Sushi in the afternoon because Dear said he felt like eating. Made half for him and half for my sisters who are also sushi lovers. Sadly, I don't really like sushi. I should start exploring new recipes when I am free. :)

After making sushi, I rushed down to Sim Lim Square for a short briefing on the job at IT Show and confirmed it. Will be working from 11- 14th March and selling Acer lappies. Got to go do my "homework & research" on lappies liaos... hehe... though its a chore to me since it is not really my interest.

First Day of Holiday

2010-03-04T22:04:00.003+08:00

Stayed home today because my mum was not happy about letting me to go out and play pool :( Can't even have a little bit of fun after exams

Watched Temptations of a Wife and did some cross stitching ^.^ Got the head done. Its seriously very repetitive and time consuming but I am determined to finish it someday :)

just feel like blogging...

2010-01-13T22:59:00.002+08:00

Just asked my mum to help me iron my formal attire as I was feeling super shagged after a full day till 9 oclock. My leg was aching and I could feel the wave of drowsiness overwhelming me. My mum was damn unhappy with me for asking her to help me out. I pleaded her. She "chanted" at me. I figured later that I should have done it on my own to save my ears and mind from all those troubles.

I don't think I am coping that well with my studies now. Opps! Got to buck up a little.

Next week is going to be my first week going back to Pei Hwa for robotics. I have yet planned or think about any ideas for the competition. I need a theme and then the songs which provide room to display good programming. Hehe...

great escape

2009-11-29T00:19:00.002+08:00

RoboCup 09 ended. Its back to reality time. I don't deny the fact that this competition has offered a great escape from reality for me. It was a lot of stress but all the more a worthwhile and fulfilling experience.

We took part in the RoboCup 09 Jr Dance category and has attained Championship Award which was only given to the top 3 in Singapore. :) Of course! credits goes to my talented juniors. I am really amazed by them being able to program as well as to dance.

Felt a little jealous because during my time robotics was not as colourful as it is now. Now, there are a lot more interesting competition going on in robotics. Somehow I wished I could program my own robot and dance with my best friends just like what my juniors did. :)

But there is something worth celebrating, I have joined FOSTER. I am going back to Pei Hwa every week for robotics next year onwards. I can indulge myself in robotics once again and this also allows myself a chance to explore robotics. I MAY BE doing ENGINEERING in university. O.O since I did not really hate physics though I love chemistry and biology to core.

Me with Hui Xian, Alicia and Ying En.

Took picture with the trophy as if its mine... LOL

Not yet done with my IO Chemistry report. No idea when I will be done. I feel lost.

2009-10-22T01:10:00.003+08:00

I have been feeling rather vexed lately over the issue of freedom. Got lots to troubles to pour so chatted like 5 hours with Sean and Vivian separately.

I give the impression of a quiet and anti-social girl. However, that is not really me. I just cannot open up for some reasons. I am not like that when I am with my two younger sisters, JunWee(my bf) and a few close friends from secondary school.

I am actually quite talkative and I can do or say things that you would not imagine me doing. But, something is holding me back. Probably due to the lack of confidence. The way I am brought up makes it is difficult for me to feel confident. I am considered lucky compared to my sister. My parents made my sister give up hopes on herself.

When I am with Jun Wee or my sisters, I can be myself totally. I do things that they will call me insane woman or what Jun Wee will do is to jokingly push me away and say "I dont know you". The more classical thing he would do is to act like he was drove into desperation because of me. I do things like for instance, acting in front of them. Then, Jun will start humming the Star Awards tune.:)

As for my few really close friends, I can say I am behaving 80% the myself. I feel very comfortable with them. I enjoy and love to go out with them.

I hope I can really be myself totally. Only then, I would feel happy without any restrictions. I cannot even stand myself being so serious like all the times.

Having fun!

2009-07-12T09:43:00.004+08:00

Phew! Yesterday was a long day. As usual, I went all the way back to SP for dance. This time round there were less stretching exercises and I have learned a new choreo. The song is "Man in the mirror" by Micheal Jackson. The dance instructor asked us to sing the song and make the "eh" sound as we dance. LOL.

After dance, I rushed down to Suntec Convention Hall to do free health screening for the public as a volunteer. It is the most interesting CIP I ever had. We had stations with equipments to help the public take their blood pressure and body fats level. This is the first time I come across the KaradaScan machine which measures the weight, percentage body fats, BMI and visceral fat level.

We helped the public to measure their blood pressure and body fats level then we explained their health condition and gave them advices. But the advices that we can give was only very simple like advising them to exercise 30 minutes everyday.

I really love the job. When I told some that they are very healthy, they thanked repeatedly. But for those who are not that healthy, I would give them advices and they would still feel gratified for the advices. Perhaps, that is the satisfaction I have got which made me enjoy throughout the whole event.

This is the first time I used spygomanometer on so many people. Ha-ha

I think it was a little unhygenic as the strap was used so many times onso many people. Some people have sticky arms. lol. And I have touched so many arms and roll up so many sleeves for the first time.

We explained the systolic and diastolic pressure after taking their blood pressure.

Yeah! End of CIP.
This is pretty lame. Was promoting for some kind of dog food.zzz

2nd Dance Session

2009-07-04T22:59:00.005+08:00

The dance session this morning was rather early. It started at 9am so I had to wake up at 7am to prepare for it. I did lots of stretching today too! I am still feeling the ache all over which made me have no mood to do work because it feels that my body is drained of energy. And finally, we got to learn some dance choreography! Hehe. I was delighted. We learned the choreo for the song "Like a Surgeon". The song is nice but the lyrics can sound rather wrong. LOL.

So I got home after dance. I went to do some housework. Luckily, those household chores are able to kill time for me. By the time I am done with them, I got prepared to go out and meet Jaslyn, Gena and Barry.

We got to Changi Village, bought tze char and went to the beach to eat. The weather was just right, windy enough. We sat under the clear blue sky and enjoyed our dinner, watching the planes flying past us.

I love the sunset <3

SDZ first session

2009-06-20T23:44:00.004+08:00

Today is the first dance session. We did lots of stretching exercises. There is only one word to describe which is "PAIN". There is only one word to keep me going on ''endure''. In addition, I have never done any proper male standard push up before and I was made to do 60 at a go. I fell flat on the floor a few times. To me, it is really too physically demanding. But, the good thing is that I feel really good after those stretches. Ha-ha. I have to stretch everyday now.

Strictly Dance Zone

2009-06-13T21:43:00.002+08:00

I woke up early this morning to go back to SP for dance audition. I was feeling super shag in the morning because of a long day at PC Show yesterday.

Initially, I was not worried about the audition at all. But the atmosphere was kind of weird at the audition place. Weird because I really don't know how I shall describe it. It was rather quiet and tense? I felt a little unease and lonely because I went there alone. I was little upset that Rebecca did not go.

In the end the audition turned out to be not as serious and stressful as I thought. The freestyle part was the one that I was most worried about but in the end it turned out to be the one which made me laugh.

We did two sets of the audition choreo with freestyle for audition. I just find it a little hilarious when everyone is doing their own freestyle part. My freestyle was really impromtu. I merely danced to the music on the spot. I think the rest too. HAHA!

Got to work at Sim Lim tml... its a little boring and I am not looking forward to it... hope the sales will be GOOD and hope to meet more easy-to-tackle customers...lol

I AM VERY HAPPY TODAY! I am loving DANCe...

Commitments

2009-05-30T22:53:00.002+08:00

It has been another busy week for me because all my ccas started. Monday was tuition day for my primary 6 tutees, Wednesday, I went for SP Student Entrepreneur and dance after that. Friday, I went for community service and cultural club subcomm meeting. It was rather insane for me especially when those days ended quite late. I hate going home alone at night.

Dance has been quite enjoyable for me. I really hope I will pass the audition. T.T I really want to dance badly. I dont want to dance like a robot anymore. Enough of robotics. Ha-ha!

Its time to sort out my current commitments and see how I can prioritize them if not I may just go bonkers.

1. Studies*****

2.Tuition job****
3. SP Dance****
4. Community Service and Cultural Club Subcomm***
5. SP Student Entrepreneur**
6. SP Red Cross*
7.Pei Hwa Alumni Youth Wing EXCO*

I can't wait to go back to Pei Hwa to give the educational talk with the other Alumni members. I think it will be a good opportunity to meet up with some juniors again.

Happy Birthday Barry!

2009-05-16T13:39:00.005+08:00

Phew! I am glad I have surived this week. The craziest days were Tuesday and Wednesday. On tuesday, I had dance clinic immediately after class till 10pm. I was really exhausted of all strength after dance. Got home at 11plus.

In less that 8 hours time, I was setting off to go back to SP again because lesson was starting at 8am. After lessons ended, I rushed off for Red Cross which ended at 5pm. Immediately after Red Cross, I rushed home and had dinner while preparing for tuition. Finally, after the tutees arrived at my place, we had tuition for one and a half hour until 9pm. Then I got my free time. I was relieved.

On Friday, I met up with my secondary school friends to celebrate Barry's birthday and to catch up with one another.

We dined at Pastamania
These are two random pics from class...

Our first time wearing the SP labcoat...
random picture taken by Xue Yin...

My class! <3

2009-05-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

It was a right choice that I have made to cancel the scholars outing to go out with my class. It was an enjoyable night with their company. I love my class more now. We went to watch X-men Wolverine. It was an awesome movie! I thought I would never watch X-men. Ha-ha. Thanks to Xue yin, we get to enjoy the free big bags of popcorn and free drinks. Dinner at pastamania.

This is just one random picture taken in class by Aniah with her webcam. Woots! Must have a life!

I want nobody nobody but you... I want nobody nobody but you...
Highly recommended MV to watch: Nobody by Wonder girls

HYC PSA Scholarship Award Ceremony

2009-04-29T23:38:00.004+08:00

This is the Howe Yoon Chong PSA scholarship ceremony held at the PSA building. I wore a simple black dress there because I could not get any career wear of my size which made me look kind of informal amidst those dressed really smartly ones.
My Mum and Dad went for the ceremony as well. :)
Phew:) I am glad that my tution fees are covered now with book allowance and monthly living allowance.

Last day at NNI research lab

2009-04-17T23:27:00.006+08:00

Today is the last day of my job attachment at NNI. It has been a awesome experience for me. Honestly speaking, I cannot really bear to leave there. I actually felt a little reluctant when I have to return my staff access pass and name tag back. So I will hard extremely hard, in hope that I can get back to work in a lab in the future. Here are some pictures taken with them...

Me in the Fly Room...

I was trying to dissect the Drosophila fly to get its brain out but I ended up squashing and ripping them up. HAHA

Me with Katherine. She was the one who guided me throught experiments when Calvin was not around. Gosh! She is damn smart.
This is Eugenia. She is the laboratory manager.
This the the Fun Board of the Neurodegeneration Lab.

It is me with Cher Hao, the uni attachment student who is wearing the labcoat for the second time for the sake of taking the photo with me and Chee Hoe, the post doc. Oh ya. Singapore is really small. Cher Hao said he bought the Philips monitor from me before I met him in the lab.

HuiMei, Me and Grace.

Cher Hao, HuiMei, ME and Grace.

Group Photo! From left to right. Katherine, Eugenia, Me, HuiMei, Grace and Cher Hao

I will work hard for what I want. Junjun work hard too k.

My new work place!

2009-04-05T17:24:00.006+08:00

National Neuroscience Institute @ Tan Tock Seng Hospital

The research lab...

The working desks...

The fridge and fume hood...

My shared working desk with Calvin...

Pipet tips...

Micropipettes...

Centrifuge...

The centrifuge room...

I have been "working" at the NNI Research Lab for the past week. It has been a thrilling week for me as it opened my eyes to science behind the scenes. The lab focuses on Parkinson's Disease and does reseach in brain cancer as a sideline. Dr Lim attached me to Calvin, currently doing his PHD, to learn about doing research in brain cancer. They are currently looking into Parkin gene which is hypothesized to have tumour supression properties. This gene, when overexpressed, mitigates the rate of cell proliferation in vitro. This is so so cool! Ha-ha. But, it is just like what Mrs Lim once told me, "Science is Hardwork". :0 I really look forward to working in the lab in future.I want to try making hypothesis and plan my own investigation! But, I know I still have to work a long way before I reach there.

Anyway, millions of thanks to Dr Lim who gave me this rare opportunity to expose me to research work. And loads and lots of thanks to Calvin for being so patient with me. Thank you Chee Hoe for offering to give me your textbooks.:) I feel so lucky.

Singapore Robo Grand Prix 2009 @ Funan

2009-03-23T19:57:00.004+08:00

Rushed back to school for robotics training after I returned back from Hat Yai on Thursday. I was working on my junior's program till 4pm.. then i decided to try out a new program. What a risky decision. But, it turned out better.

After the training in school, I went down with my junior to Funan to practise at the competition ground. We stayed till quite late. One of the juniors parents came down and asked her to go home, but she refused to and her parents were very unhappy about her. So, all of us tried to persuade her to go home so that she will not risk to be banned to go down for competition by her parents.
So tiring after the first night. Reached home at 2am.

I overslept again till 6am. This always happens. I overslept on the first day last year too. I rushed out and took a cab down to Funan.

Last year's Medallion Swift(the same racer) was up for premier league again. During the preliminary round, it clocked a good timing of 34.8 sec. It was better than last year 35.8sec.
2 of the other racers also qualified for the Open Category Finals as well.
That night we stayed back to train again for Open Category race on the second day.

The second day was our two races for Open Category. All did not make it. From then, I was determined to get top 3 for the Premier League though I know the competition will be stiff.
We stayed till 11plus on the second night to prepare for our final race-our last hope to get a prize for this competition.

Stressed. Exhausted. Nauseous. Headache. Stomach discomfort. No appetite.

Fortunately, we are lucky. We got 3rd runner up award for Premier league. Melvin who previously said he feel like jumping off the building said he do not feel like it already. I know all my juniors are happy. For most of them its their first robotics competition and they won. I love my juniors. LOTS. <3. style="TEXT-ALIGN: center">Appetite back again. Relief. Shit project.

Thailand-Hat Yai 14 March to 18 March

2009-03-23T14:42:00.007+08:00

The city of Hat Yai behind us...

Fire crackers... its real

lunch.. lunch..

Chicken blood... not used to the food there...

walking on the street of Hat Yai...

Inside the tut tut car...

tut tut...

Breakfast at Lee Plaza Hotel

Free the birds... only 300baht...13sg

errr...

Hope for Job attachment

2009-03-10T21:37:00.004+08:00

Some pictures...

Project at Vivo... White Dog Cafe

Food Republic

Seah Im Hawker Centre
Aaron and garyy...

Group A on Aaron's bdae

Grp A<3

Today's marketing test was quite okay, not as bad as I imagined. This is my very first test in poly. I am glad that my the general elective modules are coming to an end soon. But I think I am falling in love with marketing. I really abhor it in the beginning but after gaining more understanding, I am beginning to find it intriguing.

Don't like Effective Speaking Skills! IDEAS is cool! Understanding data is enjoyable!

Two weeks back I went for the Howe Yoon Chong Scholarship interview and one of the professors offered me a job attachment in hope to help me. So I contacted with Doctor Lim and went down to National Neuroscience Institute at Tan Tock Seng Hospital today. He showed me around the research laboratories today. It is such a coincident because I want to be a biomedical researcher in the Oncology field and one of my favourite parts of the human body is the brain. The research lab does research in Parkinson's Diesease and Brain Cancer. Once I confirmed my job attachment in the research lab, I think I am going to quit Philips job.

Scholarship Interview

2009-02-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

I went for the Howe Yoon Chong PSA Scholarship interview this morning. When I was waiting to be called in, I was a little apprehensive about the interview. They called me into the interview room finally. There were 3 interviewers-all Doctors-sitting in front of me, so each of them started bombarding me with questions-ranging from academia to family. Halfway through the interview, two of them gave me their namecard and said I could email them if I want a job or have any enquiries. Ha-ha. I felt rewarded actually because it seems that I have found someone out there to guide me.The conversation turned out to be quite fine. After 45minutes, the interview finally ended.

Then I headed back to CP and got someone's birthday pressie.

Ended up being late for Robotics. I went back to my Pei Hwa for robotics training today. The track is in really poor condition-laid wrongly and dusty-way below standard for training for competition. I ended having to shift the track and clean it. The progress for the competition is quite bad.

DPA camp and activities....

2009-02-18T10:00:00.007+08:00

This is group A at MT Gunong Arong's foot
too many pictures to upload... very messy... so the pics are not in the correct sequence...

water obstacles...
Sharon... the one to test water for us...
actually it is not that bad...
this is the lecture hall with all the DPA-rian... spot your friend...
learning how to make our canvas bed @ Mawai Eco Camp in Malaysia
the beach...

tying shoes lace for Kampong addidas...
woo-hoo! Flying fox...
Group A during the Swarmforest walk @ Mawai Eco Campp
Group A on the summit of Mt Gunong Arong
DPA-rian group photo!
on the canvas bed @ Mawai Eco Camp
on the way to Mawai Eco Camp
Ascending Mt Gunong Arong...
Lunch @ Mawai Eco Camp..

Group A @ Mawai Eco Camp...

Group A meeting @ SP...
@ the checkpoint... KaYan, ShiYan, Jasmine, me!, ShiMei and Geraldine...
Jerina, me!, ShiMei and Geraldine...
Mr Jacob taking DPA-rian group photo... nth to say...
Group A @ the beach...

Descending Mt Gunong Arong...
the scenery viewed from the summit of Mt Gunong Arong...
YEAH!

longing for some personal time

2009-01-18T23:53:00.001+08:00

On friday, I rushed down to Ngee Ann Poly to collect the micromouse I sent down earlier on Tuesday. I hate it! I spent like 3 hours to get there and back to SengKang. After that, I went back to school to see my juniors train for the micromouse competition. Gena and Desmond were also there to help out.

On Saturday, I went back to school early in the morning to help out for the Senior Citizen day. Gena and I went to PeiHwa Public School to wait for the invited elderly. We were told by the teachers to mingle with them. But I was rather shy and it was also due to the language barrier between the elderly and I. Most of them converse in dialect, I can only understand Hokkien but cannot really speak it that well. Oh thanks to my mum. She forbades me to learn Hokkien for I do not what reason. So I ended up greeting the elderly with a cheerful Good Morning! in mandarin, then after that it was awkward silence...

About when the lunch for Senior Citizen day starts, I rushed off for work. Work!Work! Work! Am I considered a workaholic? I am not sure. But I am fatigued. Since O level ended till now, I have not really get a day when I am free to do whatever I like and to let my weary mind restT.T

O level RESULTS!!!

2009-01-13T00:08:00.003+08:00

Receiving results from the new principal...
After receiving the results, we took photos at the Pei Hwa statue. It is actually the time capsule which will be opened when I am 38years old.

HuiShan and I

I was really lost for words when I saw my results. But I know I was delirious with joy. After the results, there was an interview by PH Times. Honestly, I was very reluctant to do that interview because I am not good with words and I am actually camera shy. So after the interview I was like.. PHEW! Finally it is over. Here's my results.
English-A1
Chinese-A1
Combined Humanities-A2
Mathematics-A1
A.Mathematics-A2
Physics-A2
Chemistry-A1
Biology-A1
Higher Chinese-B4

School dinner

2009-01-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

Had a school dinner at Serangoon Garden Country Club Jumbo Seafood restaurant today. It is actually a farewell cum welcome dinner for the new and ex principals. It was a both formal and informal night. Formal because there were actually like 5 speeches made by the different principals, Chairperson of School Advisory Committee and also Chairperson of Pei Hwa Alumni. Informal because all those present actually danced and sang together. The food was really good!!!Group Photo of the Principals, Pei Hwa Alumni Youth Wing EXCO and Pei Hwa Student Council EXCO. Gena got the post as Head of Publicity, HuiShan is the Events Coordinator and I got my post as a Secretary in the PHAYW EXCO.
Miss Chong, our ex-Principal, Gena and I.
This is Mrs Yao, the vice-principal and me! I really look up to Mrs Yao. She is going to further her studies in Australia. Her zeal for learning really makes me feel inferior. I love the way she speaks and her bubbly personality! I had a little conversation with her. She said I am actually very strong to actually be working at sls because of the type of people there. Hmmm. But I am still not quite sure what she means. She also said women must be independent and have the wisdom. Women cannot and shall not depend on men anymore. Alot of women nowadays are more sucessful than their husbands. That's exactly what I am thinking too. I mean most women nowadays think like this too. It is just that maybe for Mrs Yao's generation that women do not think like that.
''Volunteers'' dancing bollywood on stage...
Gena and I...
Ghee Wei, current President of Student Council with Miss Chong...

4E1 Chalet

2009-01-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

Besties At the beach...Me! Look abit retarded cos going to sleep already...Shades..
HuiShan!
We flew a kite near the beach it flew really high up.

scholarship presentation...

2009-01-04T22:35:00.002+08:00

Went for the Edusave Scholarship presentation this afternoon. I actually took an off day from work just for it. I still felt jittery before I am going on stage and I find it stupid because there is nothing at all to be afraid of. I tried my best to calm down and walk up with confidence. While waiting for my turn to receive the award, I kept telling myself to remember to say good afternoon instead of good morning. If I make that mistake, it will be so damn embarassing. Well. Actually there is nothing much about the whole presentation also, I find it quite shabby. Sigh... Honestly, I went there for the sake of the cheque only. Hmmm. Maybe every recipients are like that too.

I got home, changed and rush down to Hougang Mall. I got my contact lenses checked by the optician, went to buy shoes for ShiHui and got my hair trimed. Hmmm... Maybe I should consider rebonding.

I watched 保持通话 after I reached home. WOO! It is a good movie. It really gets me screaming with excitment.

YEAH!!!! YES YES YES

2008-12-30T20:13:00.002+08:00

Watched Yes Man yesterday with Junwee. Hohos. It is a very positive movie and I love it. I felt optimistic after watching it.

This morning I went back to school the first time after the Prom night for the Pei Hwa Alumni Youth Wing meeting to elect the EXCO members. I got into the EXCO and I do not know if it is a good thing or not. Honestly, I do like to become a busybody and contribute in my way to the school. However, I am a very quiet person, I feel so weird in the EXCO.

After that meeting, I went with HuiShan and HuiLing all the way to Bukit Timah to play pool. What a long journey there. I enjoyed playing with them. HuiShan and Huiling are really very nice!!! They were very patient with me though I sucked at pool. I felt comfortable playing with them.

And YEAH! I got my third paycheque. $632.28. $1363 so far. I reached my goal to earn my very first $1000 and I actually did it before 2009. I figured around $300 of my pay went into my CPF, if not I would have receive a $900 cheque now.

am i wrong?

2008-12-27T01:34:00.003+08:00

rewind back to chritmas eve...

Went with HuiShan to the zoo on the eve. I had the urge to go since I did not go there for quite long already and I feel like learning more about the animals. It was a really tiring for trip for me and the worst is that it rained. But I really enjoyed watching the feeding of the white tigers and observing the baboons. I saw a family of three baboons. Mother baboon was busy helping Father baboon to pick and eat the lice in his hair(ewww) while baby baboon kept trying to clutch to its mother's breast. Ha-ha. But mother baboon kept shoving it aside.

After that, I went to Seoul garden at TM to meet up dorothy, edmond, kuanjie and chad for a christmas eve gathering. It was not a really good idea to eat at seoul garden because I cannot really judge whether the food is cooked or not and it really burned a big hole in my pocket. Thanks HuiShan and Dorothy lots for the christmas pressies. They are so sweet and lovely:)

Christmas...
It is work again. But I don't mind because it is actually double pay. After I work I went to eat Pastamania. Hohos.

Chritmas eve.. Seoul garden. Christmas... Pastamania. Today.. Pepper lunch. It looks like good food everyday. But... not really. I still like ah ma's cooking more.

unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him...

2008-12-24T02:33:00.002+08:00

Work was kind of slack again today. Not much of a crowd today but my colleagues and I were lucky enough because with sold more monitors with higher commission. So at least today can earn 80 bucks.

A customer actually requested for a testing so I tested for him and there was a red pixel. I felt so bad when I reminded him the pixel policy again.

After work, I went to watch Twilight with Junwee. Not going to eat Nachos at Shaw again. It sucks! Perhaps it is Junwee's fault. My impression of Nachos was good all along. I love it. But after today, not anymore.

ShiMin... ShiMin... never lose your direction...

Bon Voyage!

2008-12-22T23:18:00.003+08:00

I went with Vivian to Changi Airport today and ate western food with just her. LoL. Our 'er ren shi jie' again. Ever since, Vivian started working at Philips, we had been having our recess together everytime. After lunch, we strolled around T3 till it is time to go to the departure hall.

After that, I went to Tampines mall and Century Square to shop alone. I love shopping alone!!! I feel free and there is no burden at all. I realised it is time for me to pamper myself a little. So, I bought myself an anklet and clothes.
This piece caught my eye when I passed by Mila at Century Square. Love the clothes at Mila! I asked the shop assitant to let me try it. I tried it. It fits. I bought it. It was all done within 15mins. When I am leaving the shop, another piece caught my attention. I felt the urge to try and get one more piece. It took me awhile to suppress that feeling. Self control! I am spending too much lately!!! I also just paseed some money to Vivian to ask her help me buy bag from hongkong. Got to stop!!!

on the verge of breaking down

2008-12-21T01:13:00.002+08:00

My mood sucks to the core today. I totally have no mood to joke and work. My back also ached when I was working. What a torture!

I actually lost one warranty card today. So, together with Vivian I backtracked and found the warranty card lying outside SimLim Square. I dropped it when I went out for lunch. Woah!

Got told off by Benny twice today. It is like !£$%£$***. Rawrs! First time I got told off because Vivian left at 6 but did not tell him. WTH!!!!!!!! We don't know that we need to tell him but at least we told Mr Lim already right? Second time I was told off because the screen cleaner cloth was found lying on the floor. It is like *curse and swear*. Hello???? I am definately not the last one who touched the cloth.

After the debrief, I went for dinner with Bryan and Yew Hong at Sunshine Plaza. I ate wanton mee again. I think Yew Hong recommended it since it is quite nice.

I was sort of slaughtered during the debrief and was feeling rather emotional. Must really thank Yew Hong and Bryan for those advices. Felt much comforted after that.

I shall be resilient and I must work even harder.

woohoo...

2008-12-19T22:45:00.005+08:00

So today Gena and Vivian came to my place and played mahjiong. Amanda did not come so we were actually short of one player. Just nice Shi Hui came back from school and she substituted Amanda.
Yes... this is how we played mahjiong....so we played with fake money...(the tokens)
Gena lost 1buck
Vivian lost 10bucks
I lost 13bucks
ShiHui won 23bucks
Where did the one buck go... well nvm...

So unlucky! I did not 'hu' before. When I finally thought I 'hu', Vivian told me that I 'Zha Hu' because I don't have 'tai' at all. Yi chang huan xi yi chang kong.

Gena 'da da xiang gong'. LoL. I know your future husband will be big-sized.

Congrats Vivian for being successful in hacking into my msn account. I know you feel a sense of satisfaction.

Tried some hand-me-downs today. Most were tanktops. I told my sis that the tank top looks loose and revealing and she said I am being to conservative. I do not think that I am that conservative.
The grey tank top...Hmmm. But what I really want are not tank tops but those smart office wear and laboratory coat.

Have not watched Twilight. Uhhh....

House cleaning

2008-12-18T23:15:00.002+08:00

Stayed at home today and did some clearing up and cleaning. I shall consider my room neat and tidy and free from dust at the moment. When I was clearing then I realize a owe people quite a few things and it has been there for quite long.

This are the things I owed:
HuiShan's National Geographic
Gena's Creative Life's magazine
Amanda's hairband, Red Sky in the Morning, sparklers.
Khairul's jacket

Hey do you all still want it? LoL. It seems like you'll are giving them to me you know. I will make sure I return you'll the next time I meet you.

Inviting my laopos over to my house tommorrow, we are intending to play mahjiong. I know my Mum isn't quite happy about it cos she asked if we are going to play mahjiong on the floor. It's ridiculous.

Now I uds

2008-12-17T01:07:00.003+08:00

I was kind of thrilled when I saw my second paycheque. My basic pay for 10 days of work. $503.38. Daddy was actually quite elated when he saw my paycheque and Mummy was kind of jealous. LoL. I want to save up the money for a notebook next year. $731 so far. $269 to my current goal.

Worked at Philips counter and Fuwell today. When I was at Fuwell, there were rarely customers so ended up slacking and chatting with the other promoters. One of them actually said I looked 18. WTH? I got so old meh.... I still remember during Sitex one of my customers also said I don't look 16 but 18. Can't believe it still...

What unlucky....

2008-12-14T23:57:00.003+08:00

It is really a series of unfortunate events today.

First, the sales was bad and actually worse than the sales at the other shop. This is causing me lots of stress, because according to the rest, the shop I am working at should have better sales than the other shop. I am starting to doubt my sales talk. Each time a potential customer walks away, my confidence is hurt. Each time a customer walks away, I always find myself doing some reflection on what went wrong with the speech with the customer. It always takes awhile for me to take the "blow" before I get back on my feet again. Sound serious? That's exactly how I felt. Maybe I took it too seriously.

After the the debrief which I hate, I walked out of SimLim only to realize I lost my half year supply of contact lenses which I just collected that morning. I was in a fluster. I ran all the way back to the Philips counter to search for my bag of contact lenses. Luckily I found it lying behind the cabinet. PHew....

When we were crossing the road outside Sim Lim, we were almost ran down by a car. Vivian held me back and I also grabbed her. Stupid car. The car was so close.

My day was bad enough. Fortunately got Vivian. Her presence comforted me. At least at that time she was there. Ha-has. I never watch anime but Vivian say watch Shugo Chara will become optimistic so she recommended me to watch and I think I am beginning to like it.

Happy Birthday Doriie!

2008-12-04T23:06:00.000+08:00

Best friends outing today... all my best friends except maybe Edmond. Lol. We went to Suntec to celebrate Dorothy's birthday. We had our dinner at Pastamania, so I got my plate of Prawn Aglio. It was the first time I feel so easy with money. In the past, I will just go for the cheapest. Now, I choose what I really feel like eating. Anyway, it is good to give myself a little treat at times.

We went to the arcade. Last time, 90% of the time I only watch my friends play. Now, at least I played a few games. House of the Dead rocks. I really love it! But, I still need to practice some self-control, better not to get to hooked to them.

After dinner, we went to the fountain of wealth. We sat there and indulged in the musical fountain which soothed our senses. We dedicated a song for Dorothy and Dorothy dedicated Gradutaion by Vit C for us. The funniest part is Kuan Jie actually dedicated Love Story by Taylor Swift for Vivian. We laughed like mad!(only we know why). It was rather romantic there. I thought of him when I was there. But after awhile the thinking bubble *poof!* because I just know it is impossible.

Murphy's Love Law

2008-12-02T23:45:00.003+08:00

Murphy's Law states that ''The amount of love someone feels for you is inversely proportional to how much you love them.'' So basically it means, the person you like most probably would not like you and vice versa. What pessimistic law! But it is true to a large extent. It applies for my case. Oh well.

I went down to SimLim to work today and actually saw Lin er if I am not wrong. He asked me something like where to get the cheapest mic but I was too busy to give him a proper answer but after that I did not see him again.

Got my First paycheck today. 5days basic pay. $222. Nice number anyway. My favourite number somemore. Just got my ATM card last week, finally I can bank in the paycheck and start using the ATM card for my daily expenses. Yeah! Feel like an adult already.

How I wish poly can start earlier... can't wait the the headstart programme to commence... counting down to 2nd Feb 09...

Infatuation

2008-11-30T23:47:00.000+08:00

For the pass few days I have been working at Singapore Expo for Sitex 2008, those few days I worked like 12 hours a day and it was really exhausting. Thank god my colleagues are a bunch of fun youngsters also, they really made my day.

For those few days at expo I got to interact with many different types of people. I have met customers who are really friendly and also met customers who really made things difficult for me. Sometimes I really feel like screaming. Some customers made me repeat the same thing over and over again, some just came to ask lots of question but in fact they are not interested to buy at all. I also lost count of how much I earned already. Just wait for the paycheck.

The most stressful part is still the boss. We have already tried our best to explain and make the customers buy already, but if they really do not want to buy, we also cannot help it right?!?!

And... I think I like someone. I know it's infatuation so it normally would not last. It is normal to be attracted to someone of the opposite sex. Normal. Anyway I would not think too much and I think I will not confess to him.

6th day of work

2008-11-26T15:35:00.000+08:00

Today, I am assigned to work on 5th floor TNK. Every time I am placed in a shop I feel bad and stressed if I cannot help the shop to sell. Earned $57 today, so it is$349 so far. Sitex is coming up on Thurs. I got to make a mental note to go do some research tomorrow. Actually, all these IT stuffs are really not my kind of thing and I am not really very interested but there is no harm to learn more. Ha-ha. I seriously lack sales experience and that is why I lost quite alot of customers I guess

Just received the Edusave scholarship letter yesterday, I bet some of you got yours too, right? Also went K yesterday, sang lots of songs, sang English, Chinese and Hokkien songs. I was repulsed by my own singing too. Nevertheless, it was really a great time singing to my heart's content. LoL